A new beginning

I have never blogged before... well unless you count MYSPACE... and I don't. ha! But I have to explain why I chose my title. I recently read a book called the Crown and the Crucible... It was about pre-revolutionary Russia. Tsars and princes and nobility. It was about a girl that was a peasant and became a servant to a princess... It talked about the difficulty of learning a life so different than the one she knew. That's a basic summary, but anyways. I was thinking about the title and how it applies to my life. Or actually life in general...

For those of you who don't know what a crucible is: it is a a container of metal or refractory material employed for heating substances to high temperatures. It is used to get rid of volatiles. It is something used for purification. So again... how does that apply to my title? Well, I know that I am called to something amazing in my life. But in order to get there, I have to be purified. Another common way to put it is refined. But I don't want to just scrape by as far as my purification goes. I want God to purify me a lot. Now that's a dangerous thing, I know. It is a painful process. But I know this... My crown will come after I sit in the crucible and allow it to do its job.

Another thing you have to know about me, I just moved home following God's direction... I was hoping to come home, get a job, and live my life here easily... However that has not happened. I have been unemployed for 6 months... Now I have bills, insurance, and other things that I have to pay! God has provided for my insurance, but other things are getting piled up. So I have a choice, do I want to allow this to harden me, or mold me and purify me. I will leave a quote "Whatever our Father above has planned for you, it is a destiny of His choosing. How can it be anything but for your best? And whatever obstacles and difficulties are part of it, He will give you the strength and courage to face them."